Happy Always

Yeah!back from Level up camp

2009-12-18T23:24:00.012+08:00

Tasha and Me(sheepy and Me)
Grand-Shepherd,shepherd,Sheep(haha omg i love this photo)
Me and Luan Chun(person that introduce me to housekeeping)
Me and Li Xuan(one of my best friends in church)
Me and Jia Min(my sheep mate)
Me and Esther Teo(my shepherd)haha
Me and Cher(my classmate, ex-shepherd,person that bring me to church)
Me and Deborah(sheepmates)

Yup these are the photos i have for level up camp....

2009-11-04T23:05:00.005+08:00

My Star candle holder!(i got it from swensen)

One of my collection during birthday

Altogether by caregroup EastC!
Minie MOUSE!haha so funny got another minie that dad bought for me so its like minie and minie give birth to 1 mickey..

Container(came in a right time where i can put my testimony in there)
haha they thought it might be too small for me but the fact is abit too bigfrom yulan to me(see the name sticker)

Birthday!

2009-11-03T23:20:00.003+08:00

This is present by Aunt Jade
The inside of the card the 3 year old girl give to me
the outside of the card(very nice right)i think i cannot do it (its made up of her little thumb print)
the tea set in Jack's place
The Menu(i know i abit bo liao)
Caroline presenting to me the standard present
Caroline helping me to do the cutting of cake
The cake by standard with candles
The Home cooked BeeHoon by mum
The soft toy picture with Kai Xun

Yo!Yeap my birthday is today and i guess this birthday is a birthday that i had celebrated with most people well firstly is the pri school"twins sister"group, st john people,my family,my aunts(1 of them is just 2 days after me),my clique.Erm yup its only for up today so far have no idea when i'm free to celebrate with my clique cause things are after things.and it seems like my whole week is booked by mainly st john and celebrations ba.Yup let me tell you guys slowly let me start with st john,twin sister group,family,aunts.

St John

Firstly they ask me to go swimming than i said okie sure since i got nothing to do and they book me like 1 week ago?haha than later i was the earliest to reach small mac to meet them,Aaron came keep staring at me(i feel shy la..dun stare at me)haha well he just did nothing than i ask him to call the rest of the std ask if they comming(very weird no idea why they nvr confirm who going,of course not mad at them la.hurhur not so unreasonable)than later caroline came,than she did the same thing ask them if they are eating lunch now cause going swimming they both say no than i went ahead to buy lunch(since we are fasting from 12pm-5pm)than went swimming.Haha During swimming Aaron emo larh...stay at the pool do nothing than me and caroline crazy until do pumping in the baby pool!so fun can?taught caroline how to do freestyle.She say very tough but lucky she is a fast learner and want to learn and have a easy time with her.than me and caroline go play slide(very childish rite?but i dun care!)haha fun is more important lor than after that of course tired and hungry but its only like 3 plus?than i stare at caroline and Aaron eat KFC while waiting for zi qing to come.haha zi qing made a joke while doing a call with caroline(haha i dun want say leh..)than its rather obvious they celebrating my birthday though i really wish the whole std was there.Yup so Aaron is suppose to bring me around and caroline go buy cake.yup which is like so funny like 1 guy and 1 girl walking around the mall(it can be easily mistaken!)gosh...haha ended up to help Aaron out i go popular read book..read book halfway than caroline call Aaron(which he bluff me he go toliet..well it is obvious cause its super fast like 30 sec?)than later Aaron told me caroline at open plaza(my first thought was..can they be more creative?instead of the same old place)than later of course birthday celebration.yup than wanted to go home early to pei mummy(ever since she become housewife..i seems to go out with my usual schdule....yup i felt that she feel loney but she nvr admit it de lor haha.(sorry mummy).

"Twin Sister"group

Yup it all came out from pri3 when we are in the same class and are shorties in the class.Well that year is kind of a very challenging year for me,a year where i need to admit to myself that i have a disability in hearing and my results begin to drop,the first year took up science as a subject,and a year having real true friends(friends that encourage me in my bad times,talk,laugh,taught me origami,make stickers)yup Its actually this friend call Yu Lan.same birthdate as me.But i'm bigger than her by 4 hours and 59 secs.thats to be exact.haha yup and we really talk.though til now i always think that i'm alot better than her luckier?i dunno.But when i compare i always love my parents than hers.Her parent dun even seems to care about her even forgeting her birthday?haha yup well we met up in bugis and shop?erm do nothing much actually.yup.

Family

Erm well mum cooked bee hoon and we ate the cake haha it come with a blue coloured happy birthday tag!haha so special..nvr had i saw a blue tag before.yup haha dad fufilled my request by buying me a cake haha.TKS DAD!well he is not too happy recently.Busy with stuff and yup working hard make sure he dun get sick.

Aunts

Haha just came back from there.erm so happy Ning En drew a card for me though it is not very nicely done but its appreciated..come on she is just a 3 year old kid,drawing a card for you.Only if you are not human than you don't feel touched.haha i ate Fish and Chip haha as usual..(cheapest in the menu yet the nicest)to me at least.well we ate at jack's place.i need to say that after tasting their fish(haha need to listen to me cause i'm fish eater...their fish is not very fresh.suspected they use frozen fish.but lucky their cripy-ness is able to cover the frozen fish tatse or trust me i'll nvr eat there again.well i judge everything on their fish..(cuz fish may look simple but to do it nice its hard) thats all for now shall use picture to show my birthday celebration til now.

Ans:for previous post

2009-10-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

haha yeah!i know my answer for my question for my previous post...my shepherd is Esther teo!haha yeah happy for that.though abit surprise haha.it will be no problem for her to go to my house ba since mum had such a good impression of her haha.I'll be meeting her on Thursday.My plan for the week:

Monday:meet jia min"for follow-up-ing*

Tuesday:IPW rehearsal start at 3pm*time so weird*

Wednesday:CG*doing praise*

Thursday:Meeting Esther Teo*for first shepherding*

Friday:-nothing as yet-

Saturday:St John games day*8.30am to 5.30pm...stupid so long*

Sunday:-nothing as yet-

haha today i felt my day rather slack though never do anything like slacking the whole day?went home to have dinner than sleep.gosh...need to self reflecting le...since when my life became so slack?haha next time will think of more fruitful things to do.yeah gonna stop here le

Re-structuring

2009-10-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

haha just came back from service..got re-structuring as predicted..haha no idea why but recently i found out a gift than i think its from god and its that i'm able to see things before hand...haha good and funny right but of course not everything but important things like exams related questions and things involving my life haha good right?oh and erm they super funny..ying jie told zeke and Amanda which group and who's their shepherd le but she never tell me mine...its either she forget that my shepherd is jasmine or she wants to tell me later..and haha i think instead i asked esther le haha.can't wait to know the news though i'm rather sad in my heart that jasmine is not my shepherd any more haha.yeah..my heart's crying..when jacq talk i almost wanted to cry but i know if i cry she cannot concentrate in her studies so i did it in my heart instead.

2009-10-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hey people!haha i dunno why i'm super scared of tmr checking of scripts.i really very scared that i will fail.really scared.Plus my group will be presenting our IPW to the whole level..gosh scary la told mum and kor i thought they will calm me down but NO!they did not they ended up supporting me to go.haha that not too bad either i dunno why but all my confidence seems gone totally after mr sharil told us.I really very scared.somehow i have a bad feeling.Does anyone can confirm with me if they got the same bad feeling as well?How i wish dad to cut our allowance.really want to tell him to cut mine off..abit werid right?cuz i think i had been spenting too much and not saving!gosh!I really very scared....this holidays....my plans are not set yet.i mean not exactly plans but more of like daily plans like what to do daily and stuff....evaxed on wednesday,brought didi along haha i kind of leave him alone ba.Now my worries will be what mum is doing.I know i'm able to accept didi,but my friends are not.I'm really very scared.I dun want to loose my friends because of didi too....gosh...can he grow up please?Can he ask our opionion instead of just doing it?Can he just show respect to the elders?Can he just accept it that he is a failure?gosh why isit that we must always let the small ones win all the time?i thought that it was normal but gosh..really all this had been in my heart for my 3 days of break.I dunno cause to me i can tell no one..not even my family..they already have enough to worry.I cannot tell kor kor too...either he does not want to talk to me or he have his O level to worry about now.well i just hope you guys dun anyhow think about what i wrote....if you want to clarrify can just ask me ba...but of course some stuff is privacy and i'm just talking nosense.can just ignore me sometimes

Latest News!

2009-09-26T10:06:00.002+08:00

Haha its like soon going to end of year,there is many harh......and omg-sh and why?haha basically harh means exams are coming,omg-sh means jnco,why means why must so fast end.haha cute right?know who is the inventor?answer is the owner of this blog.haha erm i want to say that i really thank god for supporting me all this while even until now.I may have alot of crazy thoughts but none had fufilled.haha well let me start from kayaking course.Its the worse course i had attended la..haha worse as in fun but results horrible,not that i fail my 1Star kayaking course but i ended up having werid things like you go see doctor after medician you have rashes but they are harmless to you.erm during kayaking course i get to know jia min like cause the instructors introduce her to us the tampines st john.But i have totally no idea why when they introduce that time i have this very werid feeling like want to know her but afraid and werid...just werid.So i went kayaking,she different team as me ma so i don't really care about my feeling.than later went kayaking row row row able to move boat front and back le than end of day 1 that time when waiting for the rest to get ready than i have this feeling again but this time was werid plus hey she is from ngee ann lei..that kind of feeling.than went to get her number blablabla.....need go meet her and li xuan to go service le..tata~will post when i'm back late night

2009-09-13T00:33:00.003+08:00

haha Okie la I today happy mood harh...Yeah i love my CareGroup,Family and standard mates.Yup haha I love harversters meet as well....this month alot people's birthday harh..haha Yeah...Jacq's birthday celebrated today.Next week is esther birthday haha!yeah Jia you people !

2009-08-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hey friends haha really very very very sorry very long never post le hurhur haha yeah!pai seh arh erm...very long never post le haha.Erm very happy and stress nowdays.
First of all its Church haha erm jasmine(my sherpherd) challenge me to become a sherpherd well it came like this i always wish and dream i would become 1 but i never really ask god for it though haha.Yeah than 1 of the sat ying jie to me to ask god to change my life and pray more i was like herm...okie seems rather exciting haha And erm today for combind service Jia Yi(my mbs senior),Antoinet(my pri6 very close clique) came haha i was obviously happy for them.Well Jia Yi suppose she is a christian le than Antoinet haha Chrystal still working on her.Felt strong in my heart that god want her to came in relationship with him.Yeah!And erm I'm invloved in planning for props for EBC mcg haha super happy larh like obviously haha able to do things for god and its only for selected people yeah! I'm doing it with Xiang Ying,will get to know her more . haha okie larh will not be as busy as people in food haha they will have alot lobang de.We just need to rmb to cut-cost can le.haha.OH YA! I joined a ministry in Hope church.haha and it is HOUSEKEEPING haha very funny right?shocked?haha maybe not u but me ba...was thinking of how i could serve the church ba..haha than ask god than he viual-ist me housekeeping ba,might have interest in cleanning my room too haha...the second part is joking de lor haha
Second-ly is St John! argh stress eh....People are stressing us that next year we might be instructors.Mdm Tong(teacher in-charge for std2) spoke to us yesterday she said that JNCO camp will not be a miricle,so we must already be prepared before JNCO camp to be trained as instuctors.She praised us.She took a piece of beef as example.She said that when we first came to st john,we were raw.But now we are not even medium but slightly raw medium.She said compare to feburary we did improve in all areas,was happy for that.Ma'm Vivian told us about JNCO camp too.She said its going to be a camp to test us.We asked what will be tested.She said in the camp they will stress us alot than see if we can take it anot like give up or what.Also testing on our skills and urgency.Argh really very scared i fail lei...omg-sh.She took command as example.She asked us if we are ready to be instructors.like commanding the squad."I was thinking in my mind if this are the things for JNCO,what will be the things to become a sherpherd for god?"haha.I'm the Response I/C for yesterday haha Ling Fang never reply than i tio pumping not angry larh i just do lor,well for this time i'm doing for the sake of doing it.than i pump down actual de lor i do ambulance style.haha i'm werid larh i flare at Aaron cuz my mood rather bad than they tot i angry but was just having a 30 mins PMS yeah?haha i think when i flare at Aaron than cpl Arif saw than he was like looking at me.haha oh ya when ma'm Vivian tok to us than she say about will give roles than she ask so who do you think will be the standard Cordinator than everyone say me.Than i was like harh wth why me?than cple Arif wrote something in his notebook thinking that i dun know,he told cpl nicolas when he came back i dunno but i heard something bad about me lor...shuts i'm prepare to suffer more during JNCO camp.And to say the truth i'm aiming towards the position of a chairman of sjab.i belive when i trust in god,he will do it de haha..weather anot he bless me with this aim i dun care or wadever position i will be next year i dun care but as long as god plan it, i want to do the position to my very best.
haha to finail-lise erm...i will say i suppose leadership is alot of things.Many areas are making me a leader for someone to follow and learn from.Well Now trying to make my life happy and live it a life god had plan for me ba...i dun want to think of more.but i want to dream and aim high for both area ba.oh ya studies as well.but i dun want to put my self in a position where i look high to my self..haha i want to look high up to this god of mine haha....

Recently

2009-07-20T16:44:00.002+08:00

haha hi blog readers haha
Recent-ly had been sick,while its for long,around 4 days i i will say even til now my head hurts alot.And erm sorry for emo-ing this few days if you do see me dazing into mid air.haha saturday service i know it was a good 1,but my heart was not at all into anything,no idea why,don't ask me.People don't seems to realise my heart was not into it either so just shut up.i think i was very quiet through out though,i mean everything,start from prayer meet to praise to worship to sermon to altar call to lunch to fellowshipping.Yea oh ya saturday i met Jasmine for breakfast,first time meeting a friend or person from church for breakfast,and i love it,oh ya a little secreat here,found out that jasmine can actually eat alot and she give me the impression that she is diet-ing in a way haha,nvr border to ask her,but nvrm.And erm my caregroup actually went to my house to visit me while i'm sick,they brought me green apples,haha was really touched though haha yea this kind of things only happen in my dreams lor and normally 99.99999% of my dreams will not happen in true life de.yea but this 0.0000001% did happen.haha really happy larh erm yea i think will be missing deborah ba......I can say she is actually a very nice person de lor,somehow felt that i'm alot closer to her than to either rachel or li xuan haha.I hope i'm a person who is easy to go with ba,though i don't really mixed with other people so much.yea thats all for today ba haha bye...

Hey sorry people haha

2009-07-12T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hey sorry for not updating my blog haha pai seh...and erm...will try to link you guys up...encouragement to update my blog will be good haha to remind me this forget-ful girl haha yea.and hor erm This week rather happy lor...not because i come the thing,but because people around me are getting more friend-ly and closer,no longer felt a big gap in between,Even my family larh,Small bro is starting to get alot alot alot better,He now listiens to me le.YEAH!You know what it make me feel sucessful.I know all along i'm no better than anyone,Being a elder sister or the only girl at home is kind of a tough thing to me,though many people say its a privillege.But people,your encouragement really stays in my heart larh..really thank you haha.And found out many cool parts of many people.
Well This week hor,i breakthrough alot thing lor,i learn alot as well,i was tired,but i found refreshment in someone,I was tired,eyes are closing while playing molopoly,while someone ask me what happen,asked me if i'm tired,haha really small things make me felt important to someone and that they still cares for me.I'm really trying my best.SJ is kinda a stress,but i belive when i do my planning well and think things positive,thinking it to be something easy can le.haha

2009-06-29T19:33:00.003+08:00

Hey blog readers..haha yeah.Today was first day of school,manage to breakthrough for sleeping in class.arghh i need to breakthrough really.But today slept for 2 mins in Home Econ Lesson haha yea...teacher is teaching about consumer,needs and wants.haha i basically understands.Yeah.Today suppose to go st john room go eat my prize de lor,but Esther Teo meeting people pioneering NAS haha yeah than did not go since its not really compulsory.Than saw Cher,Javin,Li Xuan,Ying jie,Ju Eun.Yeah.finally she joined us..had not talk to her for like so long...haha yeah.My die die plan is to bring someone to church min 1 person per year.haha yeah...this year so far haven yet..but soon..yeah...Argh must help me okie?i super scared of science lesson now.Don't know why me and kor kor have this sleeping habit.Not that we dun sleep early,we slept early also still ended up sleeping in class marh..what to do?i dunno lorx.Than Esther taught about spritual Gifts,than mine is

Gift of help/Serving
Gift of healing
Word of Wisdom
Evangelist

haha yeah...i need to do homework le wors.Yeah i want to be hardworking.I want to take A-Math,but i dun want to go 2N1 haha.Yeah....haha

SINMA

2009-06-23T20:07:00.007+08:00

went for Singapore,malaysia competition..not fair keep seeing the malaysia competitors.yea..kinda suai..i want to see how singapore can be..seriouly..malaysia de Home nursing really suck.they use the think the casuaty backbone sure break de lor...haha but their first aid kinda ZAI...learn alot of things..haha Yea..ma'm ting ting says that the trolley is wrong de lor...haha yea..she seem different as she is in msn lorx...

Church Camp

2009-06-23T19:29:00.004+08:00

Sylvina is missing.

My Pretty buddy...ESTHER TEO! wors..

learn alot things from it..yea i'm trying to post my photos up on my facebook.yea look out for me.learn alot of things.responded.yea haha dad ended up picking me up from downtown east.here are some photos for you for me in camp

Sec2 camp

2009-06-23T18:26:00.002+08:00

haha okie shall start with Sec2 camp,
DAY 1
haha its super cool la.i was late and took a cab to school,well suppose to reach there at8am,i 7.35am still a home lei,how to reach in time,take bus 100% late de lor.settled down,guys hair or people who did not appeal to the school rules are been sent home.than Asher to high fever must die die go home,though can see that he want to stay de.than knew my instructor name,She s Cynthia.Haha she super good la.So super active.haha but she also very funny la,kind and good as well.1 thing i really want to learn from her is that,she do not shout,she encourages us,belive sonner or later sure can be chief de lor.Oh i realise i'm afraid of heights.yea.wanted to try to do broken bridge de,but no time.next was rock wall,my group is the curved de,i went to try,almost did it,its the part where i cannot see than panic,my hand and leg were seriously shivering.people are encouraging me,but i gave up in the end.than did walking on a long pole thingy,help the instructor,did not want to do anything else,scared me like crazy already,was like a great scare to me,was praying on the way when i do everything else.than after that went to bath and dinner time,after dinner time got night activity,where kathleen was been kidnap by the people and we have to save her by playing a game and after the game and go and guess a number and if correct number,we get a key.My team was the first team to finish it lor.yea after that was supper and lights out.than alot people dun want sleep,but i'm tired physically and mentally le.i need the rest,who cares just sleep,well i sleep rather heavy.heard that the mojo go get the hut 13 people do PT in the middle of the night cuz they dun want sleep
Day 2
Woke up by that Chief MOJO,aka,Mo jojo.his voice super loud la.i was awake by his voice,woke up and get prepared for the day.Did Flying Fox and followed by Kayaking.than bath and prepare for camp fire.actual plan was stomp,and we stick to it.but we dunno how to start,i use my cup and fork for music.some others use dustbin as drum and plastic bottles and throw stone inside as musical instruments.than practice alot time.finally come out with something.than last team for camp fire performance,super angry la...haha but hellow..Save the best for the last...Quoted from esther teo.procced to team meeting than to supper.the instructor told us to give a shot for the best team award,asked us if we have confident to win,all of us said no..like hellow we never had such high expectation and aim for ourselfe.
Day3
woke up my the mojojo again and packed all things and ready to assemble,was sleeping in my head,i'm tired.yea had breakfast,followed by clean up and and annouced that best team was us,the mojojo describe us alot lor,our instructor also very funny,She said you guys are the best team i ever took over.even though you might not be active like shouting the cheer and all that,but you guys had alot of teamwork.than she say even though if you did not get the best team award,do not be sad or what,but you are the best.but if you got it good for you.Sounded abit like as if we will not get it.yea

Camp

2009-06-11T23:52:00.003+08:00

Okay tmr is camp i'm prepared.Jasmine wanted to meet me,i wonder what happen.its souns kind of scary when she suddenly say she want to meet me like as if she were to scold me haha,well even if she did i will admit if i think i'm wrong.She's still my sherpherd.Than today went to do the dance practice for East BC aniversary.than i left in hurry for st john camp team meeting.Well i as late but who cares.I don't really give a damn to it.We discuss about Team name and Cheer and identity.While doing identity i thought of cg identity haha but all cannot use cause cg only got girls where else team have guys and girls.than i thought of wrist band the best le.both also can use.Wanted to choose team name as green tea than identity can use green tea bottle but the cheer very hard to do.Than while discussing me,zi qing and Aaron just group automatically said about sec2 camp cheer.haha.than i was laughing.than discuss half way Aaron sudenly shout Burn Arh Burn Arh.Than everyone look at him.Everyone was laughing.Than Wee Siang also laughing than said haha no need so loud but i like the sprit haha i was like shock.imagine talking to a friend half way he/she shouted BURN ARH BURN ARH BURN U CHAO DA.haha.Than ended @2.30 than went home slack,rest.Ate Pizza for dinner.Ate3 pieces.I had alsore was baring the pain.whoa really hurt man was a big on my gum.OUCH haha.
Wanted to meet people tmr early to eat lunch de.But i guess i will have to go there myself and do all myself ba.Hope can see or meet people there.I buying shirt for dress coat for dance.haha.I'm prepared.Somehow he inspire and motivate me to do things.

2009-05-31T16:59:00.002+08:00

Today woke up at 10am haha happy.Than slack and slack til ard 10.30 go wash up and prepare my things than 11am go Tampines 1 do hair.Than after hair went down to level 1,on the way saw Diane.Met mum and dad to eat SubWay.Go Cold Storage to buy things for dinner.Bought alot ready-made,lazy cook,waste time.Than go home,i did my stuff.cpl Nicholas send me tmr Training schdule,i go type in sms word for word to std mates,(btw i do enjoy doing it,its fun)than did some preparation for shushi for didi so he can role it later.did rice(with kor kor help)and jap noodle.Now typing blog,later study Cpr,first aid,practice abit footdrill.prepare for tmr,cuz i think i kind of forget alot things.haha So Qiao,yester after service met family at "central"a HL Cafe in tampines mall,beside kopitiam.than saw ma'm Grace,than later going BHG look for weighing machine,saw staff Vivain.Than today saw diane haha 2 days saw 3 st john people,cool right?haha

Why?

2009-05-28T00:47:00.002+08:00

Well Last week is like a week where i was very miserable.But this week is a week where it seems to be a Gong(3) week.which is blur week.there is alot of things i don't understand.haha can take Ju Eun as an example.haha i dun want to say wad happen la haha dun bully me okie?(joking)haha.And blur about home.I only find my elder bro most similar to me,but he is those don't care de,but i cannot stand the feeling of family than don't care.haha.People says things and always said they mean it but ended up being like another person?Showing black face.Home to me From Monday,Tuesday and wednesday morning is great,much like a home.but wednesday night..haixx nightmare comes again.Somehow was very afraid but elder bro was beside me,i felt alot better.Whoa i cannot imagine he not around left me with all this shouting,screaming haha....i sure damn scared de lor.Wish i not at home,don't have to see all this.Sometimes the reason why i purposly stay out late outside cuz i dun wish to come back to see a home where its not peace at all.where all this are invlove.But no matter what This is the home i still have to return no matter where i go.haha.Thursday is Slyvina's birthday wors haha.YEA!thursday also last day of school

2009-05-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today so happy No Science lesson wors...was surprise la...was prepared for the worse for the bloody scolding and hate-ing face.End up was relive teacher haha lucky hope she don't come tmr and Wednesday also..i dun care she sick or wad JUST DON'T COME!Today had IT Lesson til 6pm in school the teacher over time by 30 mins almost got lock out of school....werid so early close gate.But the IT teacher is Miss Hanis lucky not Miss Teo heard that she not in school le.Haha Miss Hanis rocks la.She teach damn good,we got stuck half way she just got a way to help us without restarting to re-do the whole thing.Unlike Miss Teo who does not even seems to understand the whole programe,always we need to restart from begining again when we are about to end le.haixx haha Today,I will say its counted a blessing.Everything goes well.My Temper seems to be able to be controled by me and jelous-ness seems not so strong le.Though seprated by clique due to sitting arangement,but i found a positive side of it.I can do my own things without thinking of them example today 1hr science,t'cher never come i ended up reading newspaper for 1 hr.I mean every single article okie.can test me if u wan to.haha its fun la.I plan to read le...its fun entering the world of images,other people's world.
Tmr is CIP to East Coast Park,pick rubbish.Wu Liao right?Ya its supper but for the sake of CIP Hours just go la...tmr actually also have CG de...wanted to go for cg...But....haha u know the reason why,shall not eleborate on that.
Shall say that due to my reflection on last week i shall try my very best to take whatever happen this week positive.Hope things do change and i'm not wrong in changing myself this way.I don't wan this week to go down the drain again.Well maybe i do feel sucky about my bad results,not being happy when others ask me about it,But i guess its the consiquences ba.As what Mr Sharil said:"If you think this study method don't seem to work,Use others,We cannot be staying and doing the same old thing in life forever,things will change." Yes in case you did not know he seems to inspire me to work harder while other subs teacher like CL,SC,EL,MA seems like scolding us just because we got a bad MSG?Why?Scolding got use meh?I don't belive la...i belive its more like a way people use it to dis-stress themself.ESP SCIENCE really somehow the teacher make me hate Science more when i already cannot catch up le.You guys wana know what she told me when she give my exam paper to me?She said in a way like she does not wan to give me my test paper and said:"Lin LIN seeeeee how much you sleep in class?seeee ur results".She than showed the whole class results.I was the last 4 for science.Than before She left the class she told me LIN LIN Arh,can you stop sleeping in class i think you had slept enough in the first semester."Well Compare it to how Mr Sharil gave me the test paper.He showed me the paper personally and said Well over all you did quiet good but just that your MCQ.i got 4/10?He always say that MCQ is a section we should score in but just don't know i would rather eleborate more in other question.I love inference question.I love the way he taught us how to answer the question.Well in his class i can never sleep guess why,His class is always a class full of jokes made by him.He laugh about everything and yet things are taught,we understand what he is talking about.When i score quiet well for class test he would say Lyn,Well done,continue to keep it,you can make it.He even make all of us write in the cover page of our text book"I will never look down on my self".Such Inspiring teachers...hardly i had met any.

Sunday

2009-05-24T18:22:00.002+08:00

Sunday..haha found out i always woke up extra late on sundays.last sunday i woke up at 3pm...shocking enough,but this sunday i woke up 5pm.haixx no idea why i sleep so much.Well to say the truth,my results for this semester are super badly done.my science got 38/100.You know..i do not even know where the problem lies.The science teacher also...haixx.I think i have a problem with her just because i sleep in her lesson all the time..But who call her lessons to be always in 2 periods.Somehow felt that the know thing about life are useless.Felt so down that no one actually really cares for me,my feelings?my results?my well being? or maybe i'm being too sensitive.I really don't want to have this feeling of people back stabbing me again.Dad is ignoring me.he is caring more for didi and mum.somehow i felt this so strong.and thinking back on what i had been doing this week,It really sucks.I no longer felt so strong.I felt that i'm so weak.I have no idea why.I felt that whenever i do someone others will not aprreaciate.I had been wanting so much attention yet no one give it to me.Why WHY WHY?Why are all this things happening?

2009-05-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

Today's dance was a rather fruitful one.well at least i rmb-ed the steps.Serious-ly pei fu others lor i'm like the worse really i dunno why i'm saying that but for some reason i felt so bad thru out the whole practice.wanted to say over at cecilia's house on Sunday night than can practice than next day go school haha i mean next sunday.haha than haha dun seems to be confirm and not much people can stay over.haha yea.
Tomorrow is checking of scripts.i'm rather afraid if i get bad results hopfully the results go 1 A ba....i really have high expectation of my math.Don't know why felt so bad like harh...omg....Miss yeo not ard le no more teacher to talk to le...really wan to ask Mr Chong to change my place.Can't really hear good in my current place.i love Mdm Tong de place larh...not that i can seat with clement but cuz i can seat infront than dunno can just direct-ly ask teacher.haixx.pray for tmr results..but no mater wad results i get,i did it my best.i really studied this time.i think i studied better than previous years.

2009-05-12T20:40:00.003+08:00

Yesterday slept til 2.30pm.haha don't know what to do.cuz the day like almost over le.Heard when i sleeping alot people call me.haha sorry...really sorry.
Today wanted to wake up at 8am de.end up waking up at 11,actually i got wake up at 8am lor,but i snooze than never wake up le.Well today had caregroup,i was in-charge of lyrics,i guess i did a good job but i still forget 1 important thing..to bring my bible...stupid,i last week also forget.guess i need to pray and ask god for good memory esp during exam.Its bad to have your period during exam,but i think god let me come this also just on time...plan hao hao de.Directly after all the main exams he let me come the thing...haha THANK GOD.haha.
Today mum also told me something it should be kept as a secreat.My younger brother need to see a physcologist(i'm not sure if correct spelling).Maybe he is lack of love.Wanting and urging to bring him to know god but i guess its hard.He have all kind of stupid tuitions and classes during weekend esp on Sunday.well i said thats its stupid cuz everyone is complaining about him.i felt so irritated.At first i was like 1 of them i dun really like him but as time goes by,i started to love him like how jesus first love me.Well,for at least now we are able to joke around and have some gossip but some of my cousins and relative.Well why can't people praise him?Why can't people encourage him to live on?Why can't people share their life experience with him?Wh don't i have this chance?I felt so bad for once as a sister not being able to share this love like how my elder brother demostrate to me as a good example.Well i really hope i am him and to go through all this bloody complains,i guess he felt bad like "hello",no wants wish to be complain for which ever class he goes to right?i want to know how he feel.i want to him him.i want to pray for him.I wish....I wish..I wish...that i'm the one going through all this hardship and not him.

Test..Exams...Test..Exams....RELIE ON GOD!

2009-05-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

Haha don't know why today really felt super happy though there's many exams and test and stress going around...but whenever i see cg members or talk to god..all those are all gone!Really.
Well First day,English paper2,it was rather easy for comprehension A but not for B.passage A was like pri 5 comprehension.Passage B was the tough one.was like harh shuts...how arh....god how arh.herm nvrm....*took sometime to pray during exam close my eyes and really seek him for help*than continue doing.than confidence level rises again.do passge B was like herm...okie its tough but not that bad.Happy i did this English exam with god...
Second Day,was Math exam,haha i was super confident cuz its like my best subject.Somehow i tend to like math alot ever since i was in Secondnary School.Formulaers rocks man.And i was confident cuz Tuesday CG,we really pray alot for different areas and needs for exam.And Wednesday Study CG,did like alot of math excercise the t'cher gave us.Btw for math,Paper 1 was easy.like just do lor,but i learn from mistake,read the question carefully.haha win others by 1 question....YES!paper 2 quite hard but still in my limits.can do but very scared.cuz the question don't tell u what to do like got to think of methods to do?
Third Day,Was Science.i will say its hard.i'm died for this subject.Blame me for not studying,regreted going study with classmates,did not expect them to look down on themselves man....oh my,What you mean by you N2 sure cannot study de..and Ai ya study for what?sure no use,got study and no study no difference,i this kind of person cannot study de la..i just cannot accept this words.Well it really broke my heart.back to topic.Section C i cannot even do 1 question la...but hope section A able to pass can le.
I need to study more....i want to be Salt and Light for God.Well for all this difficulty,through this week i want to thank god for everything...
~note~:i'm sorry if i had offended some of you in my blog well i'm sorry.~

2009-04-27T20:04:00.001+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		5
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2009-04-21T20:37:00.002+08:00

Yo my dear readers,
Haha Today its a very good day for me haha congrats me for not sleeping in class today and finish chiong all my importants work.Well i'm sick now,physicallly,not mentally.haha Today CG also learn many many many things like about salt and light.they use experience,even though i know what is the meaning of salt and light,but i never really understand the meaning of it until today's cg i really learn alot la.I also wana say a very very very very big sorry to all my cg members for mistaking them.Well really i'm sorry maybe i was not really forcing on god thats why i mistook you guys so much.Lord i'm very sorry as well i mistook u also...really i'm sorry,pls punish me if u want to.....Thanks Li Xuan for letting me know the truth and to really encourage me and bring me nearer to god..li xuan really thanks you alright?well,haha found out that esther leow is not coming next week CG anymore this saturday will be her last Service with us,i wana let her know my deep hidden secreat and the joy and i really appreaciate her for giving me that it stays with me.yup thank god for all my cg members,leaders,cliques,friends for your support and encouragement you gave to me.

2009-04-05T13:53:00.003+08:00

Haha today was lacking at home whole day other than 3pm-4.15 going dance,the rest of the days is by slacking at home..sometime really feel like buying 1 whole chuck of assesment book for my self to do.But i most-ly no time do de lor.buy also waste money.Chinese also very hard to buy assesment book to do..cause most go by topic and my school 1 semester for book 1 only do the most 4 topic...its like less than half the book? haha went to church yesterday suppose to have Vision Afternoon de...but i need to go off halfway due to GongGong birthday than need celebrate...its kind of worth it la...able to talk to my 3 little piggies.Well cause 3 of us same age marh.Danielle gave me a skirt too...She said her friend give her for birthday but she is too big size to wear it..well can give me...i like it...other than the colour wise...the size and pattern is all okie.haha i'm not a really big FAN for pink but more for blue.BLUE ROCKS la..haha but really wana thank god for all my CG members and FAMILY.Thank for letting me feel love.Thanks for letting me feel that i'm not alone in this world.Yup..haha need to go off soon..

2009-03-29T18:28:00.002+08:00

Many times i felt if i'm belongs to the care group.Its bascially i don't know why,I just not feel that love anymore...perheps i do but only from some not all...I seriously dunno if the problem lies on me or them.I just want to tell them off to stop treating me like this.I'm tired of this.If you don't like me,can you just tell me?I swear i will not mind.But if you don't tell me,I will never know.As what i know is that i just love everyone of you.And i cares for you.I will just be myself and be myself no matter what happen.Cause i'm love by people who loved me in this way of i am.serious-ly after reading your blog always let me think that you hate me.You did not even mentiona about me and during care group you did not even talk to me.You just totally ignored me.Only when i did a mistake,you said about me.But other than that,you ignored me totally.Even though after all my struggling and everything i came back to god again,You did not welcome me,You still treated me like invisable.That is what make me think twice if god really make me in this caregroup.Why you can joke with cher,play and make fun of esther,sylvina,esther leow,ying jie,li xuan but not me?WHY?why is that so?WHY?WHY?WHY?
WHY?i seriously think you owe me an explanation on this okie.i'm fair with everyone,including you.you just seem so werid to me and only forgive new belivers/visitors/cg memembers,except me.WHY?you just totally ignored me.going out to tampines mall with you after your O levels let me feel good but after cher went home it seems like i'm shopping with a stranger.Why?

2009-03-22T23:43:00.003+08:00

Haha here to Write about today's FAC.First Aid Competition.Yup not with very nice results but at least not the last 3 teams.
Well today woke up at 8.45am to prepare uniform and eat breakfast and double checkings.Went out home at 9.15am cause Matthias wanted to train my command.Met Matthias 9.30am at Tampines Mrt,well,i'm 9 mins late this time.Walked to East View Sec.I'm surprise its like so short only....Should had walked home next time..Haha joking i will not..i'm not as hardworking as him.Met TPSJAB 10.30am in EVSS canteen.Yup don't see much people supporting us.Other than trainer that train us hard...Sec 1s i will not include them as they are been force to come.Only Ma'm Ting Ting,Hwee Chin,Grace,Fong Ming.Staff Swee Ting,Vivian,Matthias.Sir Jun Yang,Sing Yuen,Zheng Yee,Wei Bin,Mr Wan,My Std 3 seniors too.Yup don't rmb anymore.Was like why so less people,I suppose Mr Wan say alot teachers will be coming down but seems like its a false hope,Its all fake.
Fall in at 12pm,imagine...so hot.Than all I/C fall out to draw lots for NC team.My Team is NC5...shuts thats my big problem always have problem rmb-ing i'm NC5 instead of NC2.Its a different team la.Than later they check first aid kit.Well first problem is that i don't even understand why we have to bring in when we did not even use a single item except the bandage.Than later fall in by teams,accending numbers.Than so suai la both side of mine is from EVSS,which means NC4,6 are from EVSS over heard many of their Conversation.They have bad bad team...hello i mean its worse than my team.Which is also that i'm praising my own team.Than unifrom inspection.Haha that judge seems not so bad..He seems rather nice.Than later steward bring us to waiting room.
Than waited for quiet long than first items was foot drill..haha have prayed b4 the competition for god's guidance in this competition.I know it was foot drill as first item.Foot drill was rather good,Not so bad haha i'm happy my command is loud to me..and over all was rather good other than the Dari kiri,Tukar Hualan kiri,Tukar.I had to say semura.was like omg its like the last drill can you do it good?please as i beg you the last time.Yup was having some mood swing recent-ly guess i know the reason my self.
Next was guessing if it is case study but end up Home Nursing..Shuts next is case study lor........Home Nursing was abit screwed.Did not did a single thing but i bet because of the general observation it somehow pull but abit higher.
Next is Case study to me was abit screw too..I Do not understand what is the Judge trying to say la.First say case cut than i said Sir my team members is still doing CPR.He reply just report than i report lor...i Said:" Sir this casualty over here is suffering from a penatrating chest wound and that caualty over there is suffering from Cardic Arrest.We will place the casualty's belonging to you is there any other question?okie than walk away le.than i wait for diane CPR than the other judge don't know say what why case need DRABC de?i suppose only CPR.Thats is what we are taught la..werid guy..nvrm next time case study we do 5 mins.haha 1 min call ambulance 4 min diagnose haha.Kind of impossible.
Haha than know results already.Than heard from seniors my team had 7th/11 teams haha was happy le la don't get last can le.But bad is that other teams from TPSJAB all got trophy except my team.can see from Mr Wan face not very happy.Was sad la but nvrm i shall treat this as experience.

2009-03-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

Haha I'm surprise my team suddenly became so caring....normally i see them fighting..every day.But today is special,I see the good side of them,i see them standing up for me.
What happen today is that i almost faint during training.I purpose-ly late 30 mins tell them i over slept.haha i'm bad but i don't care alright.I need rest,i'm human.yes i should read up my notes but i'm really tired.Today almost faint during foot drill session.Haha kind of like giving up.But looking at the hope Sir Jun Yang is giving me,the confident he is trying to put into me i seriously think i should not give up.
I SHOULD NOT GIVE UP ON MY SELF IF NOT NO ONE COULD HELP ME

2009-03-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

Haha Curent-ly busy with St john training for FAC like don't know what like this.I bet i chiong for St john cannot fight with i chiong for god lor.Today have metermophise i actually can make it de but end up was thinking its not really worth it. only go for 1 hr plus must well don't go.got go and never go about same.well St john is really a big changllenge in my life currently la.First it make me from reserve to I/C.But to me through out being I/C is just a name but as long as i do my job i will be treated like team members.But realise being a I/C without team members support,you cannot be 1.You cannot lead them when they don't let /Don't allow you to lead them.They simply just ignore you when you ask them question.They Simply fight infront of you knowing that you will not encourage the team to qurall with each other,as it may lead the team to a down 1 level.Its werid you want to lead them now and u find it hard.
You talk to them and advice them not to do this it may not be a very good way to do things but they refuse to listien to you.People gossip that you are arrogant,you felt hurt,its normal...you are still a human but you cannot take it to heart.
Winning or not does not really matter to me now.It matters more if through this intensive training they got born-ed or not.I don't plan to win this year.....Maybe next year with this year std 1s?I don't know.But what i know is that i cannot let my trainer effort gone in-vain.
Another 1 is to really thank people for really putting effort for everyone.People that really want to train us yet got into many problems on us.
Yup this time where i really want to serve god.I hope that the lord will really bless me with my 2 more training left.i'm tired.God please refresh me.God you are graceful,you forgive me many times but i don't want you to forgive me all the time,i know you are forgiving.God i know that re-structuring results will be what you really want for me.I may not able to take it but lord i know with you i'm okie and super lady for u in everything.

2009-02-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

haha hi people.. recently had been very busy with my cca..SJAB.Its very werid due to i'm the I/C which is also the leader.I have to memorise 100 over pages of things and do and shout command...Now i find it hard for me to control my team...i seriously dunno where the problem lies...They expect me to know them well but i do not know..Really...i did not make a mistake in today's last case study..the one on sgt esther having a Shin fracture,sgt karen having a chemical burn&abit hysterica.Yes..well its not my fault..in case u are told than do la..why bordering to say omg omg i dunno how do i dunno how do..it does not even helps la.Each case its just like a challenge to You...given it,just do.Don't know..just ask.No Wrong in asking a question,its not even compeition.Any thing to clarify..just ask.Just do you job and do it to your best each time you have a case..no time to joke nor play around la...I just cannot stan it when it is suppose to be serious and u laugh..i dun find any funny thing la...you are there to save people not there to listien to their jokes la...And i hate to quarral with you la....i serious-ly thinking of the suggestion they give to me..talk to you guys personaly...yes i would love that..but dunno if it is posible.But i find it hard....is it my stress?i dunno.For me i'm just trying to be the best leader i could be...i never thought people would think something else...i was shock...i never thought they would think it that way...why..and how the hell i improve?she hate me than say no need say bad things behind my back...tell me straight how u feel about me...please its my last time begging u.

My Week

2009-01-18T15:20:00.002+08:00

About Class:
Hey peeps..sorry that i so long than up date..haha yup This week basically Friday we changed place.And bad enough, is Mdm Tong(my math teacher),Mrs/Miss Kuar(my Geog teacher) plan our sitting arrangement de.Than we at first though it was girl and boy sit together cause she say sit in 2s ma...than later mdm Tong say no i shall be kind to u all so girl with girl and boy with boy.we are like wheee lucky...Than we pack our things and go outside class room than later mdm Tong suddenly call me than i was like harh?Yes?looking for me? than she was like erm come here..looks like personal talk(i love personal talk with people i'm comfortable.)than i go than she told me she need my help i was like..sure can...than she told me i i'm sitting beside clement(known to be a pervet guy in my class..He is horny)than i was abit sad..than she said i need you to help all your subject teachers to shut Clement up... i was like harh erm okie...sure.(I need to say sure,i can't possibility say no...its a favour asking from all teachers)haixx sadly...
About Spritual Life:
Hey this week got cg at my house.haha so sorry really want to say sorry to my cg members as they came all the way to my house due to i'm grounded...yes mum thinks i'm hanging out with gang members...perheps she super duper wrong.i hang out with decent people and not bad people.i find them great and good.i don't see why i cannot hang out with them.Anyway this week i did not really evax on the school i'm pinoring...due to st john stuft...and mum and dad are reminding me to put my pirorities in right position,and to set my timetable right.did'nt go for service also cause same reason.i really feel hard to continue...like this with my walk with god...serious sometime i really think if it,if it is worth it.i know in heart that he never fails to love us..but to walk with him..its really hard for me.sometime even feels like giving up instead of carrying on.(i need some encouragments.....)but though of cg members..make me feel like its worth it..but...haixx really feel hard/bad.recently changed sherpherd too,its JASMINE NG .Don't feel as close to her as i'm to cher but..i know things gonna change and its for good and not worse.haha.And st john so far will be on Tuesday,Thursday,Saturday(it happen to be on both cg and service.)
haixx this time round is my st john senior say me why did'nt go for service....haha cause he is a christian as well.Than i reply: than you want me to skip st john than go church meh...i mean you will allow me la...but so sad u are not my insturctor in-charge,they won't allow..i ask b4 le.haha.

2008-12-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

First-ly gonna say sorry to my previous post haha well was abit angry cause mum help me clean my room for chinese new year than she threw away but well was angry that time but think about it when i had calm down well she is just trying to help me to clean my room cause she know it will take me a long while for me to offically clean my room.haha yup must think things at the positive side...yup a anger will put u through forever...wad for when u rmb that anger while another party forgot that anger long ago.?haha make sense right?haha dun get it can ask me again..my english is just bad enought for any other to understand..haha.thinking about school re-opening in a few days later my whole mood goes SIAN LA but holiday also SIAN LA.haha
Second-ly gonna anncouced that i made a promise to cher on 22 dec 2008,1:46:54am that whenever there is SJ event crush on church event,i will go for church event.yup.this time i gonna make my blog a holy-blog as well where i write my personal feeling for my dearest lord.yup serious-ly i not going to care who ever who obigate me to serve this lord that i want to.yup
Third-ly i wana to offically thank all my friends who had stand enough of my rubish and mood swing...i know it had been hard on you guys to stand it....if u are not my real friends who love me for who i am,i dun think we would still be friends until now...Yup and i know i have serious mood swing please help me to control...as it would be hard for me at times yup..
Forth-ly i also wana thank my CG for being there when i need them though i was abit lost when cher is not around but also the leader of reminding me on how good my cg is to me and not to neglect the love i had from them..yup Jacq i mean you if u are reading this....yes i thought of it many time its just like studies,you must put in effort and sacrisfise ur favourite show or wad ever to study,it goes the same must sacrisfise to serve god more...yup and if u really serve god to ur max..god will really bless you.yup haha had a testimony i shared to the care group....yup to me its really like wow though they don't seem to be amazed but haha meng thanks for listiening to me that time haha though u dun sound amazed that time but at least u listien to me and when ever i call you,no matter how tired you are,you would still listien to me haha... yup
LOVES^^
Lin2=Lin Lin

2008-12-28T01:43:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Seriously hate people touch my things la...my room messy tell me la..make me clean la...WHOA LAO go throw my thing hai me gonna got to copy from my friend..whoa please lor not easy lei so many malay word u go copy la....exact hand writing same paper...whoa lao.You think rubish than go throw away....You think wad....whoa lao you did not even ask me can..it may look like rubish but it had great significantes to me can..i need it la... its not a normal toy or wad okie...

2008-12-17T19:55:00.002+08:00

Hi Peeps... back from Camps and Camp....haha firstly went for

2.Church Camp for 2 days

It was rather a refreshing 1 that got refreshed and healed by god from headaches as well..Its my second time got healed by god....just realise I had many much things to improve as well as to grow in...haha this are the following

Not to have Mood Swing(try to control)
To really speak to other cg people other than people who i spoke to often
Don't ever shout unless necessary
Attitude
Prioritize

Haha was really wow after that though i had to leave early for st john well i know i had sacrifice lots for st john perhaps it took out alot of time...really thought alot if i should really back side god....U might be thinking I'm kidding why would i waste so much time in something and end up giving up....I'm serious...I am not someone who i need a guidance though i was once lost b4.but now I'm alright le.I seriously someone who even thought myself being silly to have so much to discover and yet decided to come to god and see how he would deal and change my life...well i also know even i might decided to back side god but its also hard as well....putting so much time in that..being a habit i go church every Saturday.But i just some time don't know why i made that choice that time....

2.St John Camp

Haha it was rather fun thought super different.haha would say begining SGT Karin was my team leader.I'm in Team 3(yeah haha my fav number).All the group name are super funny....but all linked to SpongeBob SquarePants haha its damn funny.My Group have 2 from std 3,1 from std 2,3 from std 1.haha its really very very very funny through out the camp.begining 1st day was more on Ice Breakers game...haha learned alot new games...(can use for CG) its very cool ....haha Learned alot from std3 like how to make people feel enthu,crapping some funny but lame joke,how much their staminar was...(its really alot)seriously.....haha but also must thank sgt ws for helping us out like helping us to take our bag and stuff haha its really greatly appreciated...can see the difference....without bag i an run but okie la faster by abit as in quiet alot but not really that much...with bag i walk like mad...was slacking behind...haha but seriously though i said they bully me but i was joking....don't take it to heart okie....was just trying to make out something to talk...haha my dearest std 1s...really thank you guys for being by my side and really felt our std growing in many things we should grew earlier on...just suddenly felt...YES we should be like that sharing with each other not being selfish only care for our self...haha really thank you...haha btw i still feel abi werid..maybe i thought too much or something during leture i was thinking...ya the idea i said about Appreciation as in i mean it...Who dun want to get appreciated when he/she do something,and haha ws make std 1s present about our group point....was abit scared but trying to be confident....was suppose to present our group idea for "Values for TPSJAB" on Right Attitude haha was thinking of what to say.haha lucky when i present that time was alright...

i start off with:"erm i talk about right attitude arh..."

Sir repied:"sure sure of course"

than i say:"oh erm right attitude have abit meaning of Loyalty,cause if lets say you join sjab for a few months than you quit than don't you feel that your past few months is a total waste?And also have abit meaning of ............................................(forget le)

Sir repied:"As what.(paused)You are Lin Lin right?

I reply:"Yes"

Sir say:"As what Lin Lin say right attitude can means alot of thing right?(i nood my head)..................................................................................................................................................................................(lazy say..cause he say lot)

than we all was given break followed by closing ceremony+take photo its very funny la i was the first 4 haha (i am not that short....at least same height and weight as Wendy)haha actually the fact is i'm abit shorter than her cuz my shoe is super high de...my insole and everything...haha yup i say until here le ba gonna sleep..le byes

2008-12-10T00:03:00.001+08:00

Sometime feel like showing CG people as well as others that even if we don't know this god,we still can live life even better than them.

2008-12-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

HEY PEEPS want to encourage u guys to jia you for next year.For people who have "O"s level next year,JIA YOU..i belive u guys can do it....As for other also jia you and i belive u will not waste another 1 year when u had wasted 1 year no doing much...
haha yupps bought my text books.they seems rather easy...but seriously thank you for people who gave me their books...want to thank you too..haha really compare mine and my brothers its really alot thiner.like mine only 3-5 books than theirs is really like 20 over books...yup here wana thank TAN WEI YEE.....yup yup thank you for helping my mum to save lots...but seriously i love 2nd handed stuff just give me what ever is in good condition yet you don't want i would love them to me its just like brand new.... whereareas i dun really like new stuff other than stationary.haha.Today lead Praise for cg..thanks ANGELINA for helping me out... :)

Erm well i dunno why don't really feel like going for this camp......but serious dun understand why must i go for this camp like dun feel like going yet lot people calling you to go.....maybe they don't understand me or what...i don't care.....I'm rebillous so?i just want to go for st john camp.can you guys just stop getting me to go....well i had already promised you to go and stay over night for 1 night.Really hate when you dun pray for me and yet yelled so much.... but just have a feeling i cannot stay in this spritual family for long its driving me mad.....Being someone i'm not...trusting some stuff i used to trust but its too overboard.Told dad he say he will allow me to go for all JUNE CAMP but december camp "NO".well really love dad he just understands me(i mean physical dad)the more i am into this kind of stuff the more i feel why am i wasting so much time in all this when i can use this time to sleep and watch my drama.....and all that like alot of my time spending with my friends like primary school friends and school friends like caroline,zi qing,as well as SJAB.I just don't get it.Why can't i spend time in my cca?like arh got wrong meh...I go for cca camp got wrong meh...seriously i just dun get it can someone explain to me why must i be like this,why am i feeling this way.Now cher is not around.....no one to sherpherd me for 1 month?its gonnna to be crazy i love the way jesus teach i love his teaching like thinking positive and all that....i love leading cg roles but just feel its not my family at all don't feel like as if i am wanted in that family...like someone not suppose to be in there yet is there...i feel lost of comunication with them like a big gap within me and the leaders....like they are someone who which seldom talk to us and stuff like me and jacq,javin,Meng,Ju EUN.Its seriously hard to communiate with them have a feeling like they only care for each other,other than me....or they only care for their sheeps....they will not talk to us de....I seriously don't know why i will feel this way but its just like that...
I only left with writing in my blog....Cher is away no one for me to talk my hearts out like stuff,sometime i just want a listiening ear....no one to talk to....its damn difficult/hard.I cannot possibility talk to anyone about it...other than my physically family....if i ask church de they will call me go church camp,if i ask st johhn,they will ask me go st john camp.its like arh i really need someone to help me.
I have to say i am very close to cher and i'm going a time of breakthrough without her.Had not been talking to her for 2 days and i am missing her like mad.serious missing.... was thinking what if next time i change sherpherd....that sherpherd might not be my listiening ear anymore.And i need a break through again....so ya as what 1 of the spritual Sister,Sister Shih Ching said i need to go through break through in order to stop a specific thing.well i seriously don't get why people from my CG just don't get it that i need a listiening ear at times and ya.... isit because i am no one in the cg or what.....or because i am too quiet.....CAN SOMEONE JUST GAVE ME A ANSWER.......
really wana reply some people's words when they said about st john camp(obvious cg member)
Meng:well you might be able to find the reply in 1 of the sentence in my ontop feelings..but just got to tell you that...i just able to come for 1.5day
Sylvina:well SISTER just want to thank you for making me feeling i'm not going through this alone during prayer conference,but i know u would still encourage me to go for church camp.
Huan Yi:Good excuse.i will look about it and see how...
Javin:I dunno what thing are you against me...Do have to keep Suan-ing my Sherpherd and I?.And go against every thing i say?every thoughts i thought of,every thing i want to share( other than tesitmony)?I want to tell you that is damn irritating.its as irritating as how people bully you and make ur face red.
Ju Eun:I also don't know how reality am i related to you?what i know that you had the same cca as me...And if you are there to give me problem can you stay away from me as far as 1km?What you want to say to the seniors can you say your own i had already had enough of you...its driving me mad.You say you will come end up never come.than what to do?obvious senior will question me first right...and also want to tell you that Please change ur attitude serious its not a behavior that SINGAPOREANS can ACCEPT.

2008-11-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hey people haha nowdays really wow haha after HK trip..really felt refresh haha really relationship with family is so much closer now....Yupp Yupp haha

My mind is confuse what to do first-ly have my st john camp and also church camp well the problem only come when both crush...i seriously feel like crying really in a lost i want to go for both die die also must go but the problem is i really dunno what to do like lost somewhere.Maybe if you are a beliver of jesus christ,you can pray for me like SJ camp will change dates i am only left with 2 weeks for god to do a miricle which i really have very very less faith but i still trust that god would do a miricle.....as SJ camp was really something that cannot be missed as well as church camp but if you were to ask me when i am not spritual i would say SJ camp but now i am a beliver of jesus christ i seriously dunno i was even thinking of going for both but i will miss out alot alot alot in church camp it will even affect my spritual growth but i really really dunno.

My dearest lord in heaven please help me to make a decision please i beg you perheps please help me to change the dates please lord i know you are able for everything.

2008-11-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hey guys today is seriously fun...while just for ur info i 'm away in HK and i just went disney land today its super fun can.....its like my favourite character 1 that i love ever since young haha yup yup i wanted to buy the soft toy but its damn ex la and i was only given 100hk....than it cost like 250hk wanted to buy but by the time convert to sin doallar will be ard $50 its super big but super ex larh.....my heart break than end up not buying but dad promise me to go to other shop to buy than later after see fire work and everything daddy sudenly sound so angry cause we keep missing than he angry than say he go buy frame than mummy say go with him,he call us to go sit at 1 side dun move than later he come find us but its like waited for them for very long than i abit angry....dunno why mood swing and also abit crying cause i scared airport there dun sell than will miss 1 big chance but very ex so i keep hesitating than sit mtr back apartment.
Than kor kor go cook mee for dinner than i help him abit here and there than mum and dad go take things than go bath...than after mummy bath finish cook than eat also than i after eat go bath cuz toilet still dry dry... than later i bath finish than dunno where i put my comb than i go search than search until my bed there got something but did not think much so i just open and see cuz i scared the cleaning unty anyhow put my things ma so i saw the MINIE MOUSE I WANTED TO BUY BUT HEARTBROKE DE.....confirm is daddy buy de lor only he and mummy know sia....i cry like 30 mins b4 that i like wanted it so so so so so so much larh.........did not expect the person who bless me with that is daddy and my daddy is so damn good to me can not cuz he give me thing but he really did alot for me larh....like i mood swing suddenly he will come and comfort me de lor..so good la if i want to find bf also must find like that de....haha jkjk i dun want bf at this time...
its wow i gonna bring it to plane and she will be sleeping beside me daily from today onwards but dun worry my other small little darlings(other soft toys) haha i will still take time to pei you all de... haha

Random

2008-11-12T16:13:00.002+08:00

BEGINING:
Hey people if you are wondering what u can do for me.....maybe just a simple prayer..?haha can pray for me for 2 things.Camp and recovery of mum's leg....well just came back from qt,sherpherding....was wondering...if cher is away to india for 1 month,than me 1 month will have no sherpherding and no one for me to share my doubts,no one to share about my thoughts and plan,no number for enquires..haha i just think without her it would be damn weird...no one to call when i am sian,no one to talk to to ask what should i do when i have nothing to do.....haixxx arghhhh i really hope and trust in the lord that she will not be away please!!!!!!!!.....i'm like so used to her le......like someone who is always share similar thoughts and thinking as me....arggh....haha BTW i wana thank a group of people which is EAST C!You guys rocks man.....i wana thank u guys for making my birthday 1 is so memorable....haha.....

SJAB:
Saturday SJ was rather 1 that make me feel like 白老鼠"Ginnie Pig"(sorry not sure if correct spelling.)Its like we meet at 6.15am at small mac.Than people who are not coming also never tell me.Than people who i suppose to wait they also nvr on HP like arh what u expect me to do?espacially CHIN ZI QING...like hello you are like 1 of my best friend in SJ and than you not coming also never tell me.and somemore you are the head corordinator lei....You are like so expected to know that larh.than you nvr come...haixxx nothing much to say to you but just disapointed...and Ju Eun...haixx her...dun want say much later spoil our relationship....she knows that saturday have training cause i told her like weeks before that personaly and reminded her on saturday in church and also call her in the week days to tell her larh....than saturday she never come than i call her than she say she don't know......

Sisters Night:
haha the stay over at Javin House was rather a good one...but did not really enjoy cause cannot shout or speak loud loud..oh yarh have a feeling my ear hearing is getting worse hope doctor will not force me to have the FM system again....I really dun like to wear larh ..like who love to wear...darh~ cause when they speaking i cannot really hear as in it need consentration.and worse most obvious is my television speaker...i relise i need to turn up the volume like last time is ard 9 than now need at least 11 to suite the volume i enjoy than kor kor get irritated haha...cannot blame me marh also not like i want it this way i'm just born with it no choice what to do?just accept the fact.haha we shared many things and enjoyed each other presents....haha i feel that i'm no longer scared of Meng anymore....haha its a good thing...cause used to scared of the leaders de haha Esther Teo no need say i treat her like friend but now just a little with respect cause she is a leader.haha but during sisters night i dunno what happen to ju eun...she suddenly show her attitude problem all out and than keep feeling like we don't care about her and stuff which is like so totally not true well to say the truth i do have this feeling b4 when i am still a NB but now....erm no...i can say seldom ba like once in a while only....

Today:
After qt when to have sherpherding with cher.first we when to Subway to eat lunch i mean only me than later we was been chase out than cher suggest with Macdonal than we went also kana chase out than i suggest up there in OpenPlaza de outside de Phills's there to sit than we pray this time will not get chase out le than really nvr haha than when back home than knew mum was injured than haixxx sian gonna help out le this week de coming morning qt dunno can go anot haha gonna take care of mum and small bro and so house work arghhh something which i'm so lazy to do....haha later 5.30 going out le than meet cg for cg dinner haha what a bad time everytime cg dinner will have something bad happen de last time is dad ard this time is mum sick...its like worse and worse and worse wors....

HAHA SAYONARA....

My birthday Cum a bored day

2008-11-04T19:56:00.001+08:00

My rasin cake

Pancake

This is with my Sherpherd: CHER,many people say we look like twins

This one is with Esther.

This one is with Jasmine

This one is with Javin

Yesterday was my birthday.I want to thank All of you who had prepared for my birthday..Well it goes like this i was expecting you guys to celebrate my birthday on Saturday.well you did not,than later i thought u guys not celebrating my birthday le...so was rather sad cause no plan after qt other than lunch.but after qt u guys gave me a great surprise.actually i can see that u guys are preparing cause everything seem abit******** haha can see through i mean but was like arh...oh okie like how come...and cher you arh........zhen(1) shi(4) de(2).......haha :) by the way i baked a cake (rasin cake), and pancake.

haha Mum seem angry than i dirty the kitchen.But i just love to cook....i cannot not to be proud of what i had cook.its really profesional

But Mum just hate it larh unlike dad who would help me to clean up and not yell at me...like hello who want to be at home doing nothing.