Sunday, May 31, 2009;4:59 PM Y
Today woke up at 10am haha happy.Than slack and slack til ard 10.30 go wash up and prepare my things than 11am go Tampines 1 do hair.Than after hair went down to level 1,on the way saw Diane.Met mum and dad to eat SubWay.Go Cold Storage to buy things for dinner.Bought alot ready-made,lazy cook,waste time.Than go home,i did my stuff.cpl Nicholas send me tmr Training schdule,i go type in sms word for word to std mates,(btw i do enjoy doing it,its fun)than did some preparation for shushi for didi so he can role it later.did rice(with kor kor help)and jap noodle.Now typing blog,later study Cpr,first aid,practice abit footdrill.prepare for tmr,cuz i think i kind of forget alot things.haha So Qiao,yester after service met family at "central"a HL Cafe in tampines mall,beside kopitiam.than saw ma'm Grace,than later going BHG look for weighing machine,saw staff Vivain.Than today saw diane haha 2 days saw 3 st john people,cool right?haha
Thursday, May 28, 2009;12:47 AM Y
Well Last week is like a week where i was very miserable.But this week is a week where it seems to be a Gong(3) week.which is blur week.there is alot of things i don't understand.haha can take Ju Eun as an example.haha i dun want to say wad happen la haha dun bully me okie?(joking)haha.And blur about home.I only find my elder bro most similar to me,but he is those don't care de,but i cannot stand the feeling of family than don't care.haha.People says things and always said they mean it but ended up being like another person?Showing black face.Home to me From Monday,Tuesday and wednesday morning is great,much like a home.but wednesday night..haixx nightmare comes again.Somehow was very afraid but elder bro was beside me,i felt alot better.Whoa i cannot imagine he not around left me with all this shouting,screaming haha....i sure damn scared de lor.Wish i not at home,don't have to see all this.Sometimes the reason why i purposly stay out late outside cuz i dun wish to come back to see a home where its not peace at all.where all this are invlove.But no matter what This is the home i still have to return no matter where i go.haha.Thursday is Slyvina's birthday wors haha.YEA!thursday also last day of school
Monday, May 25, 2009;10:58 PM Y
Today so happy No Science lesson wors...was surprise la...was prepared for the worse for the bloody scolding and hate-ing face.End up was relive teacher haha lucky hope she don't come tmr and Wednesday also..i dun care she sick or wad JUST DON'T COME!Today had IT Lesson til 6pm in school the teacher over time by 30 mins almost got lock out of school....werid so early close gate.But the IT teacher is Miss Hanis lucky not Miss Teo heard that she not in school le.Haha Miss Hanis rocks la.She teach damn good,we got stuck half way she just got a way to help us without restarting to re-do the whole thing.Unlike Miss Teo who does not even seems to understand the whole programe,always we need to restart from begining again when we are about to end le.haixx haha Today,I will say its counted a blessing.Everything goes well.My Temper seems to be able to be controled by me and jelous-ness seems not so strong le.Though seprated by clique due to sitting arangement,but i found a positive side of it.I can do my own things without thinking of them example today 1hr science,t'cher never come i ended up reading newspaper for 1 hr.I mean every single article okie.can test me if u wan to.haha its fun la.I plan to read le...its fun entering the world of images,other people's world.
Tmr is CIP to East Coast Park,pick rubbish.Wu Liao right?Ya its supper but for the sake of CIP Hours just go la...tmr actually also have CG de...wanted to go for cg...But....haha u know the reason why,shall not eleborate on that.
Shall say that due to my reflection on last week i shall try my very best to take whatever happen this week positive.Hope things do change and i'm not wrong in changing myself this way.I don't wan this week to go down the drain again.Well maybe i do feel sucky about my bad results,not being happy when others ask me about it,But i guess its the consiquences ba.As what Mr Sharil said:"If you think this study method don't seem to work,Use others,We cannot be staying and doing the same old thing in life forever,things will change." Yes in case you did not know he seems to inspire me to work harder while other subs teacher like CL,SC,EL,MA seems like scolding us just because we got a bad MSG?Why?Scolding got use meh?I don't belive la...i belive its more like a way people use it to dis-stress themself.ESP SCIENCE really somehow the teacher make me hate Science more when i already cannot catch up le.You guys wana know what she told me when she give my exam paper to me?She said in a way like she does not wan to give me my test paper and said:"Lin LIN seeeeee how much you sleep in class?seeee ur results".She than showed the whole class results.I was the last 4 for science.Than before She left the class she told me LIN LIN Arh,can you stop sleeping in class i think you had slept enough in the first semester."Well Compare it to how Mr Sharil gave me the test paper.He showed me the paper personally and said Well over all you did quiet good but just that your MCQ.i got 4/10?He always say that MCQ is a section we should score in but just don't know i would rather eleborate more in other question.I love inference question.I love the way he taught us how to answer the question.Well in his class i can never sleep guess why,His class is always a class full of jokes made by him.He laugh about everything and yet things are taught,we understand what he is talking about.When i score quiet well for class test he would say Lyn,Well done,continue to keep it,you can make it.He even make all of us write in the cover page of our text book"I will never look down on my self".Such Inspiring teachers...hardly i had met any.
Sunday, May 24, 2009;6:22 PM Y
Sunday..haha found out i always woke up extra late on sundays.last sunday i woke up at 3pm...shocking enough,but this sunday i woke up 5pm.haixx no idea why i sleep so much.Well to say the truth,my results for this semester are super badly done.my science got 38/100.You know..i do not even know where the problem lies.The science teacher also...haixx.I think i have a problem with her just because i sleep in her lesson all the time..But who call her lessons to be always in 2 periods.Somehow felt that the know thing about life are useless.Felt so down that no one actually really cares for me,my feelings?my results?my well being? or maybe i'm being too sensitive.I really don't want to have this feeling of people back stabbing me again.Dad is ignoring me.he is caring more for didi and mum.somehow i felt this so strong.and thinking back on what i had been doing this week,It really sucks.I no longer felt so strong.I felt that i'm so weak.I have no idea why.I felt that whenever i do someone others will not aprreaciate.I had been wanting so much attention yet no one give it to me.Why WHY WHY?Why are all this things happening?
Wednesday, May 20, 2009;8:27 PM Y
Today's dance was a rather fruitful one.well at least i rmb-ed the steps.Serious-ly pei fu others lor i'm like the worse really i dunno why i'm saying that but for some reason i felt so bad thru out the whole practice.wanted to say over at cecilia's house on Sunday night than can practice than next day go school haha i mean next sunday.haha than haha dun seems to be confirm and not much people can stay over.haha yea.
Tomorrow is checking of scripts.i'm rather afraid if i get bad results hopfully the results go 1 A ba....i really have high expectation of my math.Don't know why felt so bad like harh...omg....Miss yeo not ard le no more teacher to talk to le...really wan to ask Mr Chong to change my place.Can't really hear good in my current place.i love Mdm Tong de place larh...not that i can seat with clement but cuz i can seat infront than dunno can just direct-ly ask teacher.haixx.pray for tmr results..but no mater wad results i get,i did it my best.i really studied this time.i think i studied better than previous years.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009;8:40 PM Y
- Yesterday slept til 2.30pm.haha don't know what to do.cuz the day like almost over le.Heard when i sleeping alot people call me.haha sorry...really sorry.
Today wanted to wake up at 8am de.end up waking up at 11,actually i got wake up at 8am lor,but i snooze than never wake up le.Well today had caregroup,i was in-charge of lyrics,i guess i did a good job but i still forget 1 important thing..to bring my bible...stupid,i last week also forget.guess i need to pray and ask god for good memory esp during exam.Its bad to have your period during exam,but i think god let me come this also just on time...plan hao hao de.Directly after all the main exams he let me come the thing...haha THANK GOD.haha.
Today mum also told me something it should be kept as a secreat.My younger brother need to see a physcologist(i'm not sure if correct spelling).Maybe he is lack of love.Wanting and urging to bring him to know god but i guess its hard.He have all kind of stupid tuitions and classes during weekend esp on Sunday.well i said thats its stupid cuz everyone is complaining about him.i felt so irritated.At first i was like 1 of them i dun really like him but as time goes by,i started to love him like how jesus first love me.Well,for at least now we are able to joke around and have some gossip but some of my cousins and relative.Well why can't people praise him?Why can't people encourage him to live on?Why can't people share their life experience with him?Wh don't i have this chance?I felt so bad for once as a sister not being able to share this love like how my elder brother demostrate to me as a good example.Well i really hope i am him and to go through all this bloody complains,i guess he felt bad like "hello",no wants wish to be complain for which ever class he goes to right?i want to know how he feel.i want to him him.i want to pray for him.I wish....I wish..I wish...that i'm the one going through all this hardship and not him.
Friday, May 8, 2009;10:29 PM Y
Haha don't know why today really felt super happy though there's many exams and test and stress going around...but whenever i see cg members or talk to god..all those are all gone!Really.
Well First day,English paper2,it was rather easy for comprehension A but not for B.passage A was like pri 5 comprehension.Passage B was the tough one.was like harh shuts...how arh....god how arh.herm nvrm....*took sometime to pray during exam close my eyes and really seek him for help*than continue doing.than confidence level rises again.do passge B was like herm...okie its tough but not that bad.Happy i did this English exam with god...
Second Day,was Math exam,haha i was super confident cuz its like my best subject.Somehow i tend to like math alot ever since i was in Secondnary School.Formulaers rocks man.And i was confident cuz Tuesday CG,we really pray alot for different areas and needs for exam.And Wednesday Study CG,did like alot of math excercise the t'cher gave us.Btw for math,Paper 1 was easy.like just do lor,but i learn from mistake,read the question carefully.haha win others by 1 question....YES!paper 2 quite hard but still in my limits.can do but very scared.cuz the question don't tell u what to do like got to think of methods to do?
Third Day,Was Science.i will say its hard.i'm died for this subject.Blame me for not studying,regreted going study with classmates,did not expect them to look down on themselves man....oh my,What you mean by you N2 sure cannot study de..and Ai ya study for what?sure no use,got study and no study no difference,i this kind of person cannot study de la..i just cannot accept this words.Well it really broke my heart.back to topic.Section C i cannot even do 1 question la...but hope section A able to pass can le.
I need to study more....i want to be Salt and Light for God.Well for all this difficulty,through this week i want to thank god for everything...
~note~:i'm sorry if i had offended some of you in my blog well i'm sorry.~