Sunday, March 29, 2009;6:28 PM Y
Many times i felt if i'm belongs to the care group.Its bascially i don't know why,I just not feel that love anymore...perheps i do but only from some not all...I seriously dunno if the problem lies on me or them.I just want to tell them off to stop treating me like this.I'm tired of this.If you don't like me,can you just tell me?I swear i will not mind.But if you don't tell me,I will never know.As what i know is that i just love everyone of you.And i cares for you.I will just be myself and be myself no matter what happen.Cause i'm love by people who loved me in this way of i am.serious-ly after reading your blog always let me think that you hate me.You did not even mentiona about me and during care group you did not even talk to me.You just totally ignored me.Only when i did a mistake,you said about me.But other than that,you ignored me totally.Even though after all my struggling and everything i came back to god again,You did not welcome me,You still treated me like invisable.That is what make me think twice if god really make me in this caregroup.Why you can joke with cher,play and make fun of esther,sylvina,esther leow,ying jie,li xuan but not me?WHY?why is that so?WHY?WHY?WHY?
WHY?i seriously think you owe me an explanation on this okie.i'm fair with everyone,including you.you just seem so werid to me and only forgive new belivers/visitors/cg memembers,except me.WHY?you just totally ignored me.going out to tampines mall with you after your O levels let me feel good but after cher went home it seems like i'm shopping with a stranger.Why?