Wednesday, March 18, 2009;8:46 PM Y
Haha Curent-ly busy with St john training for FAC like don't know what like this.I bet i chiong for St john cannot fight with i chiong for god lor.Today have metermophise i actually can make it de but end up was thinking its not really worth it. only go for 1 hr plus must well don't go.got go and never go about same.well St john is really a big changllenge in my life currently la.First it make me from reserve to I/C.But to me through out being I/C is just a name but as long as i do my job i will be treated like team members.But realise being a I/C without team members support,you cannot be 1.You cannot lead them when they don't let /Don't allow you to lead them.They simply just ignore you when you ask them question.They Simply fight infront of you knowing that you will not encourage the team to qurall with each other,as it may lead the team to a down 1 level.Its werid you want to lead them now and u find it hard.
You talk to them and advice them not to do this it may not be a very good way to do things but they refuse to listien to you.People gossip that you are arrogant,you felt hurt,its normal...you are still a human but you cannot take it to heart.
Winning or not does not really matter to me now.It matters more if through this intensive training they got born-ed or not.I don't plan to win this year.....Maybe next year with this year std 1s?I don't know.But what i know is that i cannot let my trainer effort gone in-vain. Another 1 is to really thank people for really putting effort for everyone.People that really want to train us yet got into many problems on us. Yup this time where i really want to serve god.I hope that the lord will really bless me with my 2 more training left.i'm tired.God please refresh me.God you are graceful,you forgive me many times but i don't want you to forgive me all the time,i know you are forgiving.God i know that re-structuring results will be what you really want for me.I may not able to take it but lord i know with you i'm okie and super lady for u in everything.