Tuesday, December 9, 2008;11:16 PM Y
HEY PEEPS want to encourage u guys to jia you for next year.For people who have "O"s level next year,JIA YOU..i belive u guys can do it....As for other also jia you and i belive u will not waste another 1 year when u had wasted 1 year no doing much...
haha yupps bought my text books.they seems rather easy...but seriously thank you for people who gave me their books...want to thank you too..haha really compare mine and my brothers its really alot thiner.like mine only 3-5 books than theirs is really like 20 over books...yup here wana thank
TAN WEI YEE.....yup yup thank you for helping my mum to save lots...but seriously i love 2nd handed stuff just give me what ever is in good condition yet you don't want i would love them to me its just like brand new.... whereareas i dun really like new stuff other than stationary.haha.Today lead Praise for cg..thanks ANGELINA for helping me out... :)
Erm well i dunno why don't really feel like going for this camp......but serious dun understand why must i go for this camp like dun feel like going yet lot people calling you to go.....maybe they don't understand me or what...i don't care.....I'm rebillous so?i just want to go for st john camp.can you guys just stop getting me to go....well i had already promised you to go and stay over night for 1 night.Really hate when you dun pray for me and yet yelled so much.... but just have a feeling i cannot stay in this spritual family for long its driving me mad.....Being someone i'm not...trusting some stuff i used to trust but its too overboard.Told dad he say he will allow me to go for all JUNE CAMP but december camp "NO".well really love dad he just understands me(i mean physical dad)the more i am into this kind of stuff the more i feel why am i wasting so much time in all this when i can use this time to sleep and watch my drama.....and all that like alot of my time spending with my friends like primary school friends and school friends like caroline,zi qing,as well as SJAB.I just don't get it.Why can't i spend time in my cca?like arh got wrong meh...I go for cca camp got wrong meh...seriously i just dun get it can someone explain to me why must i be like this,why am i feeling this way.Now cher is not around.....no one to sherpherd me for 1 month?its gonnna to be crazy i love the way jesus teach i love his teaching like thinking positive and all that....i love leading cg roles but just feel its not my family at all don't feel like as if i am wanted in that family...like someone not suppose to be in there yet is there...i feel lost of comunication with them like a big gap within me and the leaders....like they are someone who which seldom talk to us and stuff like me and jacq,javin,Meng,Ju EUN.Its seriously hard to communiate with them have a feeling like they only care for each other,other than me....or they only care for their sheeps....they will not talk to us de....I seriously don't know why i will feel this way but its just like that...I only left with writing in my blog....Cher is away no one for me to talk my hearts out like stuff,sometime i just want a listiening ear....no one to talk to....its damn difficult/hard.I cannot possibility talk to anyone about it...other than my physically family....if i ask church de they will call me go church camp,if i ask st johhn,they will ask me go st john camp.its like arh i really need someone to help me.I have to say i am very close to cher and i'm going a time of breakthrough without her.Had not been talking to her for 2 days and i am missing her like mad.serious missing.... was thinking what if next time i change sherpherd....that sherpherd might not be my listiening ear anymore.And i need a break through again....so ya as what 1 of the spritual Sister,Sister Shih Ching said i need to go through break through in order to stop a specific thing.well i seriously don't get why people from my CG just don't get it that i need a listiening ear at times and ya.... isit because i am no one in the cg or what.....or because i am too quiet.....CAN SOMEONE JUST GAVE ME A ANSWER.......really wana reply some people's words when they said about st john camp(obvious cg member)Meng:well you might be able to find the reply in 1 of the sentence in my ontop feelings..but just got to tell you that...i just able to come for 1.5daySylvina:well SISTER just want to thank you for making me feeling i'm not going through this alone during prayer conference,but i know u would still encourage me to go for church camp.Huan Yi:Good excuse.i will look about it and see how...Javin:I dunno what thing are you against me...Do have to keep Suan-ing my Sherpherd and I?.And go against every thing i say?every thoughts i thought of,every thing i want to share( other than tesitmony)?I want to tell you that is damn irritating.its as irritating as how people bully you and make ur face red.Ju Eun:I also don't know how reality am i related to you?what i know that you had the same cca as me...And if you are there to give me problem can you stay away from me as far as 1km?What you want to say to the seniors can you say your own i had already had enough of you...its driving me mad.You say you will come end up never come.than what to do?obvious senior will question me first right...and also want to tell you that Please change ur attitude serious its not a behavior that SINGAPOREANS can ACCEPT.