Monday, December 29, 2008;11:27 PM Y
First-ly gonna say sorry to my previous post haha well was abit angry cause mum help me clean my room for chinese new year than she threw away but well was angry that time but think about it when i had calm down well she is just trying to help me to clean my room cause she know it will take me a long while for me to offically clean my room.haha yup must think things at the positive side...yup a anger will put u through forever...wad for when u rmb that anger while another party forgot that anger long ago.?haha make sense right?haha dun get it can ask me again..my english is just bad enought for any other to understand..haha.thinking about school re-opening in a few days later my whole mood goes SIAN LA but holiday also SIAN LA.haha
Second-ly gonna anncouced that i made a promise to cher on 22 dec 2008,1:46:54am that whenever there is SJ event crush on church event,i will go for church event.yup.this time i gonna make my blog a holy-blog as well where i write my personal feeling for my dearest lord.yup serious-ly i not going to care who ever who obigate me to serve this lord that i want to.yup
Third-ly i wana to offically thank all my friends who had stand enough of my rubish and mood swing...i know it had been hard on you guys to stand it....if u are not my real friends who love me for who i am,i dun think we would still be friends until now...Yup and i know i have serious mood swing please help me to control...as it would be hard for me at times yup..
Forth-ly i also wana thank my CG for being there when i need them though i was abit lost when cher is not around but also the leader of reminding me on how good my cg is to me and not to neglect the love i had from them..yup Jacq i mean you if u are reading this....yes i thought of it many time its just like studies,you must put in effort and sacrisfise ur favourite show or wad ever to study,it goes the same must sacrisfise to serve god more...yup and if u really serve god to ur max..god will really bless you.yup haha had a testimony i shared to the care group....yup to me its really like wow though they don't seem to be amazed but haha meng thanks for listiening to me that time haha though u dun sound amazed that time but at least u listien to me and when ever i call you,no matter how tired you are,you would still listien to me haha... yup
LOVES^^
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Sunday, December 28, 2008;1:43 AM Y
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Seriously hate people touch my things la...my room messy tell me la..make me clean la...WHOA LAO go throw my thing hai me gonna got to copy from my friend..whoa please lor not easy lei so many malay word u go copy la....exact hand writing same paper...whoa lao.You think rubish than go throw away....You think wad....whoa lao you did not even ask me can..it may look like rubish but it had great significantes to me can..i need it la... its not a normal toy or wad okie...
Wednesday, December 17, 2008;7:55 PM Y
Hi Peeps... back from Camps and Camp....haha firstly went for
2.Church Camp for 2 days
It was rather a refreshing 1 that got refreshed and healed by god from headaches as well..Its my second time got healed by god....just realise I had many much things to improve as well as to grow in...haha this are the following
- Not to have Mood Swing(try to control)
- To really speak to other cg people other than people who i spoke to often
- Don't ever shout unless necessary
- Attitude
- Prioritize
Haha was really wow after that though i had to leave early for st john well i know i had sacrifice lots for st john perhaps it took out alot of time...really thought alot if i should really back side god....U might be thinking I'm kidding why would i waste so much time in something and end up giving up....I'm serious...I am not someone who i need a guidance though i was once lost b4.but now I'm alright le.I seriously someone who even thought myself being silly to have so much to discover and yet decided to come to god and see how he would deal and change my life...well i also know even i might decided to back side god but its also hard as well....putting so much time in that..being a habit i go church every Saturday.But i just some time don't know why i made that choice that time....
2.St John Camp
Haha it was rather fun thought super different.haha would say begining SGT Karin was my team leader.I'm in Team 3(yeah haha my fav number).All the group name are super funny....but all linked to SpongeBob SquarePants haha its damn funny.My Group have 2 from std 3,1 from std 2,3 from std 1.haha its really very very very funny through out the camp.begining 1st day was more on Ice Breakers game...haha learned alot new games...(can use for CG) its very cool ....haha Learned alot from std3 like how to make people feel enthu,crapping some funny but lame joke,how much their staminar was...(its really alot)seriously.....haha but also must thank sgt ws for helping us out like helping us to take our bag and stuff haha its really greatly appreciated...can see the difference....without bag i an run but okie la faster by abit as in quiet alot but not really that much...with bag i walk like mad...was slacking behind...haha but seriously though i said they bully me but i was joking....don't take it to heart okie....was just trying to make out something to talk...haha my dearest std 1s...really thank you guys for being by my side and really felt our std growing in many things we should grew earlier on...just suddenly felt...YES we should be like that sharing with each other not being selfish only care for our self...haha really thank you...haha btw i still feel abi werid..maybe i thought too much or something during leture i was thinking...ya the idea i said about Appreciation as in i mean it...Who dun want to get appreciated when he/she do something,and haha ws make std 1s present about our group point....was abit scared but trying to be confident....was suppose to present our group idea for "Values for TPSJAB" on Right Attitude haha was thinking of what to say.haha lucky when i present that time was alright...
i start off with:"erm i talk about right attitude arh..."
Sir repied:"sure sure of course"
than i say:"oh erm right attitude have abit meaning of Loyalty,cause if lets say you join sjab for a few months than you quit than don't you feel that your past few months is a total waste?And also have abit meaning of ............................................(forget le)
Sir repied:"As what.(paused)You are Lin Lin right?
I reply:"Yes"
Sir say:"As what Lin Lin say right attitude can means alot of thing right?(i nood my head)..................................................................................................................................................................................(lazy say..cause he say lot)
than we all was given break followed by closing ceremony+take photo its very funny la i was the first 4 haha (i am not that short....at least same height and weight as Wendy)haha actually the fact is i'm abit shorter than her cuz my shoe is super high de...my insole and everything...haha yup i say until here le ba gonna sleep..le byes
Tuesday, December 9, 2008;11:16 PM Y
HEY PEEPS want to encourage u guys to jia you for next year.For people who have "O"s level next year,JIA YOU..i belive u guys can do it....As for other also jia you and i belive u will not waste another 1 year when u had wasted 1 year no doing much...
haha yupps bought my text books.they seems rather easy...but seriously thank you for people who gave me their books...want to thank you too..haha really compare mine and my brothers its really alot thiner.like mine only 3-5 books than theirs is really like 20 over books...yup here wana thank
TAN WEI YEE.....yup yup thank you for helping my mum to save lots...but seriously i love 2nd handed stuff just give me what ever is in good condition yet you don't want i would love them to me its just like brand new.... whereareas i dun really like new stuff other than stationary.haha.Today lead Praise for cg..thanks ANGELINA for helping me out... :)
Erm well i dunno why don't really feel like going for this camp......but serious dun understand why must i go for this camp like dun feel like going yet lot people calling you to go.....maybe they don't understand me or what...i don't care.....I'm rebillous so?i just want to go for st john camp.can you guys just stop getting me to go....well i had already promised you to go and stay over night for 1 night.Really hate when you dun pray for me and yet yelled so much.... but just have a feeling i cannot stay in this spritual family for long its driving me mad.....Being someone i'm not...trusting some stuff i used to trust but its too overboard.Told dad he say he will allow me to go for all JUNE CAMP but december camp "NO".well really love dad he just understands me(i mean physical dad)the more i am into this kind of stuff the more i feel why am i wasting so much time in all this when i can use this time to sleep and watch my drama.....and all that like alot of my time spending with my friends like primary school friends and school friends like caroline,zi qing,as well as SJAB.I just don't get it.Why can't i spend time in my cca?like arh got wrong meh...I go for cca camp got wrong meh...seriously i just dun get it can someone explain to me why must i be like this,why am i feeling this way.Now cher is not around.....no one to sherpherd me for 1 month?its gonnna to be crazy i love the way jesus teach i love his teaching like thinking positive and all that....i love leading cg roles but just feel its not my family at all don't feel like as if i am wanted in that family...like someone not suppose to be in there yet is there...i feel lost of comunication with them like a big gap within me and the leaders....like they are someone who which seldom talk to us and stuff like me and jacq,javin,Meng,Ju EUN.Its seriously hard to communiate with them have a feeling like they only care for each other,other than me....or they only care for their sheeps....they will not talk to us de....I seriously don't know why i will feel this way but its just like that...I only left with writing in my blog....Cher is away no one for me to talk my hearts out like stuff,sometime i just want a listiening ear....no one to talk to....its damn difficult/hard.I cannot possibility talk to anyone about it...other than my physically family....if i ask church de they will call me go church camp,if i ask st johhn,they will ask me go st john camp.its like arh i really need someone to help me.I have to say i am very close to cher and i'm going a time of breakthrough without her.Had not been talking to her for 2 days and i am missing her like mad.serious missing.... was thinking what if next time i change sherpherd....that sherpherd might not be my listiening ear anymore.And i need a break through again....so ya as what 1 of the spritual Sister,Sister Shih Ching said i need to go through break through in order to stop a specific thing.well i seriously don't get why people from my CG just don't get it that i need a listiening ear at times and ya.... isit because i am no one in the cg or what.....or because i am too quiet.....CAN SOMEONE JUST GAVE ME A ANSWER.......really wana reply some people's words when they said about st john camp(obvious cg member)Meng:well you might be able to find the reply in 1 of the sentence in my ontop feelings..but just got to tell you that...i just able to come for 1.5daySylvina:well SISTER just want to thank you for making me feeling i'm not going through this alone during prayer conference,but i know u would still encourage me to go for church camp.Huan Yi:Good excuse.i will look about it and see how...Javin:I dunno what thing are you against me...Do have to keep Suan-ing my Sherpherd and I?.And go against every thing i say?every thoughts i thought of,every thing i want to share( other than tesitmony)?I want to tell you that is damn irritating.its as irritating as how people bully you and make ur face red.Ju Eun:I also don't know how reality am i related to you?what i know that you had the same cca as me...And if you are there to give me problem can you stay away from me as far as 1km?What you want to say to the seniors can you say your own i had already had enough of you...its driving me mad.You say you will come end up never come.than what to do?obvious senior will question me first right...and also want to tell you that Please change ur attitude serious its not a behavior that SINGAPOREANS can ACCEPT.